okay. it’s time to break some hearts.. i have to break one for sure. immediately. i feel pretty sick when i think about that. but the more important thing right now is: mine NEEDS to be broken too. i’m quite sure he (my future-heartbreaker) won’t read this, but i just want to write down a couple of thoughts and feelings. i’ll ask him to do that, ‘cuz he wouldn’t break my heart by himself. he simply doesn’t have the slightest idea about the way i have feelings for him, i think. we could have been together if i wasn’t too shy half a year ago (HALF-A-YEAR!!). that’s what i hate myself for all the time, but maybe i’m not right. i want to establish clarity. i know he’s just not that into me. i fucking already know that. but otherwise… i’m so full of hope :( can’t go on with this text.. the day that brings things out into open will come, even if that means we can’t be lovers or friends or .. whatever. fml, or, better:
fuck limerence.
